Wednesday, February 11, 2009 ♥

Green Werks 7th Feb - well after many days of hard work. finally its time to share the loot made. i guess before we met up there were some discussions going on. Well probably i should start on how we met. Way back Mid of jan , It was a recuitment for telemarketing post. That particular day i was still having a morning Mahjong session with my secondary close fren. wtf? i need to execuse myself so many times just to listen to the calls and tell them i am engaged and would it be possible for them to drop me an sms on their name age gender location and experience. haa there was this guy ( o lvl student ) - who is very persistent and impressed me. he never stopped calling neither did he stop smsing. i only told him i would consider him. there wasnt many suitable candiates. most of them werent able to liase with chinese speaking cutomers. i was looking for someone who can - work for long term run, cook during lunch time for me , who can liase with chinese speaking customers. Probably people would be wondering why a telemarketer must be capable of cooking when he/she only requires to make phone calls. the fact is i miss home cook food, i guess i wish there would be someone who can be there to look after me? take care of me? hmmm... she must resemble a motherly figure to me! :) then there was also another indian lady who is experienced in telemarketing. had already decided on these 2 candiates . During the interview session i received an sms. Any vancy for telemarketing job? haa so then i asked the usual Qs age gender blah blah blah and i asked, can u speak manadarin and came a reply of course! hmm then i decided to arrange for an interview since there is no harm in having more options to choose. sad to say another O lvl student. Haaa then during the interview i was so fickle minded. sigh or was i too soft hearted? wasnt able to turn 1 of them down. so decided to make the arrangement to ask the indian lady ( who was the person i think has the most potential and i want to train her to help me out ) to come for understudy and to start calling only after feb once i managed to train the O lvl girl up she should probably be station to work from her residential place. who knows when the day came, the indian lady didnt turn up. SO i ended up with 2 O lvl students . Haa then the unexpectedly, the guy was a guy from Campus Superstar 1 finalist. Haaa and he seemed to get along pretty well with the girl. well that is beside the point, and then this guy seem to need alot of money. well then he was also working part time as a sales in the night. Then their O results was out and they did farely well. So i treated them eat hainan chicken rice to congrats them. during the 3rd day, i was quite keen to bring out the potential of the 2 kids in doing the night sales. So started on a brainstorm session.
well back to the day we distributed the loot we earned. Topics arose.... on the effort , contribution of income , workload , risk involved and including was the right measures taken? so i was quite upset that at times no matter earlier what u have tried to instill the guide menthoring to them, pple tend to forget about it. to me i feel , fate is something which cannot be avoided. today we know 1 another is fated and we should cherish it. well so the conclusion one. In short sometimes people only see the path right in front of them, forgetting how beautiful the place on their left and right is........ but then 11th feb we managed to come to a conclusion to continue on this partnership. well... for now i really hope the guy has woken up and as partners we set the targets and focus right. ..................... :)
i might not be your direct kin, but to me all of you are like my babies. it is my responsibility to make sure nothing goes wrong. always remember , do the right thing and you will never go wrong
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2009 chinese new year. Was actually together with this ger. well... knew 1 another since 19? like 7yrs ago when i started riding. we always call 1 another bao. and we have not been in touch with 1 another for quite some long. then.. 1 day i receive an msn from her....... we were chating and asking if any of us had moved on and found ourselves a steady r/s. as expected. none did move on.... so then i asked if she wanted to try out on a r/s with me. since both of us know this is purely a r/s which is not even known to the public. she know she is not going to tell any of her family and frens. cause well , who wants to let people know about a r/s which is not stable? then so even when we try it out. things doesnt turn out right? whyyyyyy? either we were too busy for 1 another. well at least for my side it is true. i started on a new business which needs to occupy my evening time. so then we managed to meet up on the 2nd or 3rd day of cny. well she was asking me if she need to bring oranges when visiting my godmum house. then i post a Q back and replied - do u bring oranges when u visit people? when i reach around her vicinity, haa her face was pretty black. well i am who i am? well at least for the instant. then we continue our visits, after that gambled poker. hmm because she is around, i wanted to gamble alone and not share with my mum. cause 3 person share a card i think the relatives would grumble. then me and my mum started gambling on our own. by end of the night. i didnt really win or lose but sad to say my mum lost $240. ohmy! my mum is earning probably 800$ a mth. sigh.. at 1st didnt want to give her any ang bao this year due to many factors. and i also bought her bai du mei yuan bao liao. cause me 4-500$... in the end during her bday on 7th Feb i still bao her a $500 ang bao with many ten dollar note which i want to tell her that money is not earned easily. ok... side track so much. back to this girl who is my BAO , then after sending my mum home i then send BAO back home. hmm... as i reached her house , then we started to talk about future. Then she post me Qs - do u know what is the thing i want? how well do u know me? I was pretty speechless. couldnt answer up to her expectations. but what i know is i want to strive for a career and provide a gd living for the pple around me.. my family and the family which i will be settling up in the future.... and so while driving back home. i thought for a while. and i SMSed her 2 long SMS of which she didnt reply any. In short, i tell her is either you can leave me as its only fair for her to find someone who can give her a proper and decent life or to be me an opportunity to prove myself worthy. No replies came... .... till then.
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2000hrs 10th feb - was at st luke. sigh,as i look at the frail lady lying on the bed, tears just kept rolling down. so skinny. almost close to a skeleton. can u imagine my feeling? how i felt at the point? ................. my grandma was diagnosed with cancer... 3rd stage. sometimes i wonder why, why do we need to go through life. so many times i have been through these kind of stages in live. im just 26. not 66... but i just felt i have been to hell....... and still going... going deeper and deeper.. mentally tortured. my emotions being fragile. was there , not knowing what to say to her. just sat there silently... how i wish all the sufferings would be gone.. 1 day.. i might just collapse and fall.